Hello Everyone.
I have to thank you all for your continuing support of my blog, something I am struggling with. Someone on my blog asked how I was doing recently, so I am going to let you know, rightly or wrongly, opening my heart, I shall hopefully make it brief.
I am not in a good place and find card making and blogging too much pressure at this time. You may say 5 months after he died I should be feeling OK now. I'm afraid it's not that easy for me. He was my life and I had been with him since I was 16, 63 years. A few of you will know how I am feeling. I had to let you know that I will try to visit you, and appreciate your wonderful work, and the inspiration it gives me. I will continue to make cards, with difficulty, and try to blog them too, as I have said many times we are a large family, so plenty to make. Time seems to get away from me, with extra tasks to do now, and struggling with my condition.
Please know I appreciate you all for your messages, help, and the love that comes through too. I will get there, but things are popping up that I am finding difficult to deal with, like our beautiful garden, today the gardener I employed said he doesn't do weeding etc. He did grudgingly do the hedges that needed a prune. Martin always kept it so beautiful, and no one wants the work involved.
My apologies for revealing my worries, but that's part of what is going on, making blogging seem not so important. I hope I will find time to visit you all at least occasionally.
Thank you all again.
4 comments:
I’m so sorry you are struggling Faith but really it is not surprising .. 5 months is no time at all after such a long life together. Many of us dread being left alone and having all those practical worries to deal with, let alone the emotional cost. Take your time .. card making and blogging are good if they are a pleasure or solace for you, but they should not be a source of pressure or stress. Take care and just do what you can. Sending hugs xx
I'm not surprised you are struggling. Bereavement isn't easy at any time. It's awful that someone employed to do a job only wants the 'easy bits'. You probably don't reach out for help as you have been part of a solid team for so many years but I'm sure the younger family members could help you find a gardener whose willing to do the full job or ask neighbours if they know of anyone. Know that you are not alone. WakeyL
Five months is no time at all for such a loss, I feel for you Faith and I am sure everyone else will too. I hope things eventually get easier for you. I hope you can carry on crafting, it does help I know but can be a struggle, take care of yourself. xx
Not surprised you are still struggling Faith, 5months is no time at all after 63 years so don't be too hard on yourself. A gardener who doesn't do weeding!!! Time to get rid and find someone who is more helpful. Card making and blogging help as a distraction but not when they become a chore-we are all here for you and if you want to rant or open your heart-go ahead sometimes a lot easier than talking to family. No need to stress about commenting-we will survive. Take care of yourself Faith.
Carol x x x
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